It didn't really hit me until today that this weekend is Labor Day Weekend. I think it's a sad testament to how mentally consuming this process has been. (I won't tell you how I forgot about the mandatory preschool meeting this week or posted an assignment exactly a week late or give you any other clues about how cognitively impaired I currently am).
It wasn't until I realized there are no radiation treatments on Monday that I was able to really take note. Then it sunk in that Geoff doesn't work Monday either. Initially, I was really excited...then I got on Facebook. I realized everyone was going away to their cabins, or camping, or other fun family adventures.
It stung as I realized that we too had put an extensive amount of planning into our weekend, but not for the sake of fun. Our planning was centered around preparing for this week's chemo to hit. We had our house majorly cleaned today (thank you again wonderful aunts!!!). We made sure we are stocked up on all the essentials for everyone. We have a special bag packed for the kids in case we need some diversions/distractions.
It makes me sad to think how much I'd rather be able to take advantage of this opportunity to do something fun with my family and treasure every moment. You know, just in case...Then I tell myself, don't think like that. You will have a great Labor Day Weekend next year or hell, when you're done with treatment. You can make up your own special weekend. We'll get through this. We will find a way to make this weekend fun and special for us. Meanwhile we'll be thinking of you and hoping that you are finding ways to treasure every moment with your families and friends.
If it helps to know you're not the only family missing a holiday weekend out-and-about, I'm spending the weekend packing my mouth with gauze, trying to stay on top of pain meds and drinking liquid foods as a result of today's wisdom tooth extraction. And, you can certainly make up for the holiday at a more opportune time! I've found this to be such a personally crucial strategy for the life of an on-call apprentice. For example, we're having "Christmas in September" this year with my parents due to the practice's due dates. You are a fantastic mama and wife with a great attitude! I'll be thinking of your fam while I'm cooped up this weekend :)
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