C is for Confusing

Hi, this is Geoff again. Gin is tired again tonight, so I am back on blog duty.

Gin has eluded to this in a few of her posts, but for those of you who haven't seen her lately, she looks good. Like, really good. Like, what cancer are you talking about good. For the most part, this is awesome. It should be entirely awesome, but there is some weirdness caused by our perception that people question how sick Gin is. Since tomorrow is the half-way point with chemo, this is probably as good a time as any to let you know how Gin is doing, or at least how I think she is doing as a completely non-neutral observer.

1. She's tired. To me this is easily the biggest difference. Most of you probably know this already about Gin, but she doesn't really turn off or do relaxing all that well, so being tired and having to take it easy have been difficult at times. It seems to me in the past week that she has accepted this, and has done a better job than she usually does of prioritizing rest.
2. She hurts. This isn't as bad as I thought it might be, but she is definitely feeling affects from the treatment. My wife is a huge lightweight when it comes to meds, so in order to retain some cognitive ability to get things done (see: importance of accomplishing tasks from #1 above), she usually doesn't take meds, and if she does, it is usually not much. Anyway, she is taking some meds to deal with her discomfort. I know this probably sounds like no big deal, but you really need to understand how unusual it is for her to take meds.
3. She has really good days. As in, feels like she did before cancer good days, and the best part is, these are not uncommon. I would say right now, it is about 50/50. You can bet that weekends are going to be bad, and Tues, Wed, Thurs are going to be pretty good. However, take all this with a grain of salt, because...
4. She is still working it all out. Last week, Monday was fine - on of the really good days. Today, it was not. Last week, Friday was when the bad weekend started. This week, it really didn't get bad until Saturday morning.
5. She is eating well. We have talked about it, and I am not sure if it is due to munchies from the steroids, or all the good food we have received, but she is eating. This is really good, because she needs to eat to keep her energy up to keep fighting the nasty cancer stuff.
6. (speaking of food) She (and I) are amazed at the help and support we have received. We can never thank you all enough. 

Anyway, tomorrow is halfway through chemo. It is amazing how quickly it is going. Thanks as always for the support!